Morning Sickness Blues...

Dear Emma,
Today has been a very difficult day! I feel very sick, and even had to call my mom to come over and help me with Eli this morning! Thank God for family being near by huh!? I dialed and hung up about 3 times before I actually called. I just didn't want to bring someone over here for no reason, and was worried that I would begin to feel better by the time my mom got here. I'm so glad I called, because even now, I am feeling very sick, and can barely walk. You are so active and because of that, it can kind of cause even more irritation on my morning sickness days. You have been going non-stop since mommy woke up, and are still going right now! Every time I get into a position where I feel better or comfortable, you start kicking really hard, and then I get sore ligaments, and feel even more nauseous. The ironic thing is that I still smile and love to feel you move, even when it hurts! I can't help it, I'm still in awe that there is a baby in my tummy, and when you move around, it reminds me of how real this is! And Emma, can you believe that even in the midst of mommy getting sick in the bathroom, I was thanking Jesus for a healthy baby boy, a healthy baby Emma in my tummy, and a wonderful, caring and supporting husband!? It's crazy what a mommy can endure with the grace of God. I know my strength comes from God, I've never been more sure of that! I was sitting there in my very real discomfort and stress and praying for people who suffer much worse. It got me to think of the people who are being persecuted and suffer greatly, and God actually prompted me to pray for complete strangers in my situation. It's so unbelievable how much God cares for his people, and how he can have little old me praying for strangers just by going through something as normal as morning sickness! It amazes me... So, that's how I know that there is always someone praying for me and my family. :) Isn't that pretty cool? Emma! Geeze! hahahahahaha, you just kicked the living day lights out of me! I'm seriously sitting here watching my stomach go up and down... You are going to be so much fun I think! and a bit of a handful maybe??? ;) Time will tell ;) Your brother is a very active little guy which I love. He is always on the move, exploring, and wanting us to interact with him. I know you two will get along. He is going to want to show you everything! I get giddy just thinking about the day you will be coming into this world to be held, kissed and loved by your daddy and I. We talk about you all the time :) We are so thankful for you Emma. Even on my more difficult days of pregnancy, I can think about how blessed we are. Love you!

this was 2 days ago! 6 months! yay!

What a Weekend!

Dear Emma,
Well, the past week, and this past weekend were ever so busy for mommy! I was able to be the photographer for a friends wedding, and so I took engagement photos, rehearsal photos and then the wedding day photos! It was so much fun, and you treated mommy very well through it all. I felt good, and had the energy to get through it all thank Jesus. I'm glad that I have little morning sickness and am able to get around more. Also, the very next day was your brother Elijah's first birthday! I stayed up baking cupcakes and a cake, and decorating for that with your daddy! It was so much fun! Since it was his 1st birthday, I wanted it to be special :) Then, two days later it was mine and your dad's anniversary! Two years of fun with your daddy :) I'm pretty tired now. I think it's all catching up with me now ;) Good thing we have the ability to rest. I've taken it easier yesterday and today.

 So... You are one funny baby Emma. I don't know quite what to think about this, but you are soooooooooooooooooooooooooo hipper! That's what I gather anyway. You are always moving and kicking mommy REALLY hard! It actually feels awkward for me sometimes and you aren't even that big yet! Yipes, I wonder how it will be when you are bigger!? But the difference is that you kick downward, and make me have to pee about every 10 minutes! It's so weird. I keep telling your dad, "it's like she wants out already." Kind of makes me nervous because Eli never did that. But you put a lot of pressure on me in that direction, and it seems like you are trying to find your way out! Hahahaha, I'm sorry about being so blunt, but it's true! I keep having the feeling that you might make an early appearance! Not too early or anything, but maybe before your due date. Only God knows I suppose. :)

I'm so excited for you to come Emma! Your daddy and I were talking about you last night, and how we can't wait to see what you look like, and to hold you and hear your cry! Your going to be a tiny little baby!!! Ah, we are so excited! I was telling daddy how I was going to paint your little toe nails when you are a bit older! Fun girly stuff! You are making my tummy very large these days Emma! Hahaha... It's hard to be comfortable already. I have had days where I change three times! There are many reasons this could happen, for instance, when I play with your brother, I always get dirty and get stains on my clothes, so if I need to run any errands I change before going out. The other reasons could be that what I first put on is not comfortable enough, or doesn't fit right, but at times it takes me the whole morning to figure that out. (Your brother is trying to shut my computer right now, and also press buttons!) I better go, he wants to play cars with me :) Love you Emma! :)

At the wedding, taking a break ;)

you and me at 23 weeks!!!

mommy and daddy's 2 year anniversary!

I made your daddy, brother and I Micky Mouse pancakes for our anniversary breakfast!